I haven’t really been able to write anything lately because my mind has been focused on one single thing: “I’m going to have a baby.”
…Even writing that doesn’t feel right! Does anybody ever really feel old enough, slash lived enough to say those words? On January 23, I realized it didn’t really matter when we were ready. Although we definitely didn’t believe it until two days later, when the stick literally said, “Pregnant.” And even since then, I don’t think it has felt real. One week after we read the “P” word, we settled on our first house. And probably everything since then has been a total blur.
I’m already 12 weeks along? The first trimester of my pregnancy is complete? What?! This is crazy to me. Someday I will look back on these short 9 months and think, “it happened so fast…” But I already feel that way! I need to take more time to sit and just think about what is happening in our life. To sit and pray for this child that hasn’t even come yet. To pray for this baby that someday will start middle school, graduate high school, get married and have babies of their own. It’s so far beyond me that I am going to be a parent. That for the rest of my life, I will be somebody’s mom.
Once again, through this short journey that I’ve only experienced a third of, I have recognized that I could not have had a better partner in life. There are definitely days where I am losing it and he can’t do hardly anything right…. 🙂 But I really can’t say enough about him. I want to uplift him and brag about how wonderful he has been to me through this. That he makes dinner and cleans up without me asking. That he doesn’t care what I want to eat or not eat, he just wants to find the right thing for me. (Lately it seems to be mashed potatoes and McDonald’s ice cream cones, by the way.)
Every day, I’m more amazed at the miracle that’s happening to us. If the amazing creation of babies isn’t proof enough that God is real, I don’t know what possibly could be. My only hope is that from day one, this baby’s life is dedicated to the God who made life happen.
I guess this is just the beginning!