He knows you’re tired

IMG_6617I had one of those moments again.

One of those parenting blips in time where God shows me what it’s like for Him as my dad. I mean, obviously, I’m not a dad. But He encompasses every and all things that I need as a parent.

Guys, four year old Olivia is just something special. We had a perfect storm this past weekend. It was a full weekend of late nights and early mornings. She spent like three hours bouncing on her best friend Lily’s trampoline. She then hit the wall. You know the wall.  She literally could not recover. I thought she was getting sick. She just made noises… not like whining or crying. Some weird thing in between. She didn’t eat dinner, which was pizza. How is this possible? She must be getting sick. She literally just wailed herself to sleep on me. I tried to make the transfer to her bed, which did not go well, friends. She just, like, thrashed around. I tried to lay with her. I tried to rub her hair. It was honestly comical. She literally growled at me. Laying next to her on her little bottom bunk, I finally said, “Do you want me to leave?” And she straight up growled, “NO!

That was it. This was the picture of me and my Jesus. For the smallest moment in time, I grasped a fraction of His love and patience for me. My therapist’s words came back to me for the fiftieth time since our last session:

He knows you’re tired.”

Any normal day, this little girl’s behavior would have been seriously addressed. Honestly, I still don’t know if I handled it right, but she was literally beside herself. She was exhausted and couldn’t find a way to just rest and be in her own skin. So I let her fight her way to rest. As she took it out on me, I just laid next to her. I didn’t smother her trying to force her to be calm. I didn’t discipline. I let her fight it out. I waited.

And oh my gosh, isn’t this what God does? He gently waits while we fight our human needs for extra rest. He gives us the space that we’re asking for, even though He knows we could use more of His presence. While we take it out on Him. While we get angry and cry and don’t even know why. He waits.

He knows we’re tired.

We fight internally because we want to be so much more than we are. We want to be stronger. We want to be more put together. We want to be in control. We fight hard to do whatever it is that we think would make God happy. To make others love us. Just like my little girl, we refuse comfort and flail around, convinced that we can find the strength within ourselves.

And all the while, our Father is whispering,

Are you weary? Carrying a heavy burden? Then come to Me. I will refresh your life, for I am your oasis. Simply join your life with Mine. Learn My ways and you’ll discover that I’m gentle, humble, and easy to please. You will find refreshment and rest in Me. For all that I require of you will be pleasant and easy to bear.” [Matthew 11:28-30]

Can I just remind you of the Truth today?

He knows you’re tired. He sees your schedule. He understands your responsibilities. He is not asking anything of you that you are not capable of. His word says it: He is easy to please.

You may feel like you’re not doing a good job as His daughter. You told yourself you’d wake up early to be with Him, and you keep sleeping in. You’re trying so hard to choose joy, but you’re just… tired.

He knows.

Instead of trying to push through and be something you aren’t, what would happen if you gave in and let Him be enough? Instead of fighting to prove yourself worthy or strong, what if you simply let it go and let Him be worthy and strong?

This is not an invitation to give up on what’s hard. It’s an invitation from your Father to shut down the lies of hustle and success.

Take a deep breath.

He sees you. He knows you. He understands.

Let Him.

 

He understands humanity, for as a Man, our magnificent King-Priest was tempted one very way just as we are, and conquered sin. So now we come freely and body to where love is enthroned, to receive mercy’s kiss and discover the grace we so urgently need to strengthen us in our time of weakness.

[Hebrews 4:15-16]

One thought on “He knows you’re tired

  1. Such perfect truths these words are! I love this particular special gift you have. Your talents are many! Love you shazzzie

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